Lumpy Life

I entered this year in episode, waking up on the 1st of January in episode; after having had a quite a few drinks the night before, celebrating the new year in true Scouse fashion, by getting drunk with my Dad and quite a few other family members I rarely see. Although it wasn't the way I would have liked to enter the new year, not remembering the first days of the year; and also having to leave my Dads two weeks earlier than was planned, it wasn't one of my longest episodes. I still would like to avoid them as much as I can, lasting only ten days, it still knocks me back a lot more when the surroundings I wake up in are completely different than what I remember.  Since waking up on the 10th of January in my bedroom instead of in my Dads living room on the inflatable bed like I expected, I have managed to stay awake for possibly one of my longest periods yet; until once again I fell asleep on the 21st of February, not what I wanted.  Like the episode I started the year in,

I talk about change a lot; I think that's because everyone is constantly changing, even if we don't notice it they are always happening. Changes in appearance, personality, smell and well just everything; if we stayed the same person all through our lives we would never excel in life, without change we wouldn't have any of the weird and wonderful discoveries we have today. In our day to day lives we still change constantly, little adjustments that aren't noticed and then huge changes that everyone notices; all in the hopes of bettering ourselves. Sometimes we are in desperate need of change, yet we don't realise it, because our minds trick us into believing that everything is fine; it's only when that change is forced upon us, that we finally realise how long we have needed it. Over the past 2 years I thought I was happy; I thought I had found someone that made me happy, and pushed me to be the best that I could be. I was wrong.  I realise now how much he pu