Lumpy Life

There are so many things that happen in an instant. Some of the things we witness or do can happen in the blink of an eye, and they can either make or break you. Everyone wants to be the best person they can be; whether that's in a personal sense, or if they want to be the best to live in specific way. What a lot of people don't take into consideration is the people around them, who strive for perfection putting every ounce of their being into becoming the best, and then it is all taken away from them. I lived this reality for several years. There aren't enough words to be able to fully describe the gut wrenching blow, when you're told you will never be able to be the person you haven dreamt of being for years.  Over the years I have moved from back up plan to back plan, having to find new pathways for myself in the hopes of finding and independent future. There have been many times when I have given up; I've been at the peak of the high times, and I've also b

It's weird to think that in a few weeks I'm moving, not only house but I am moving a good distance across the country. I have applied for a summer creative writing course, which could lead me to getting into University in the upcoming year. I don't think anyone could fully understand how much this means to me, it means the world to me that I finally have my dream back; all I have ever wanted my entire life has been to go to University, and study something I have so much passion for and love dearly. If you know me well or even if you've just read my blog, you will know how much writing means to me; it is the best way I can express myself, its where I can open myself up fully and just let go of everything. I'm not the best at expressing myself through face to face interactions, don't get me wrong I can talk to people in person; I can tend to be quite awkward, and if it's a serious conversation I tend to get upset quite quickly. I tend to lose the conversation