Lumpy Life

It's hard to imagine where I'd be without the family that I have. They have and always will be my support beams in life; if I had a different family I would have subconsciously adapted to their way of life, but I wouldn't want to change the people I call my mum and my dad my sisters and my brothers. They are the people who have pushed me and helped me become the person I am today;  sure we've all had fights and arguments, but there's never been anything for us to stay angry at forever.  Without my family I would have given up; without them I wouldn't have made it through my GCSE's and actually passed, it's amazing how the people who are always there can be taken for granted until something happens. When my mum had her motorbike accident and lost her leg; I remember my two older sisters being there and making sure me and my brother were fed, I remember my grandma and my dad coming up to look after us, I even remember relatives who live miles away in Wal...

It's difficult waking up in the morning and knowing you only have a limited amount of energy; meaning you've got to choose carefully what you're going to do, because you can't do it all. This is my thought process everyday when I wake up, so many things I want to do yet i have so little energy to do them. There are many people out there who go through the exact same thing as me, but there are a lot more people who don't. Organising your day and having to decide between getting a shower or cleaning your room because you only have enough energy to do one or the other.  Even when I'm not in what we call an episode and I'm well and my normal self i have to think about what I'm going to do and how much energy it will use; because if i don't my episodes become more frequent and sometimes last longer, but it's become so normal now that i don't have to think much about how I'm organising my day it's more of a subconscious decision. I wish i...